Time

I seem to have some issues with how I value time and a concern about how others may value and use their time.  Some people are very busy and you practically need to set up an appointment with them.  If I were to use Facebook to gauge their weekend activity level some people would be a 9/10 while I'm closer to a 2/10. I am aware the process of sharing might actually indicate the opposite is true, where they are sharing for the sake of fitting in.

If I were to put myself into the shoes of the other person, I'm not sure how much people would like hanging out with me.  I try not to act stupid or too awkward, I try not to be a total party pooper I try to put others into consideration and I try not to be cheap. I know some people would find me awkward and boring especially when there are activities I just don't like to go for.  But it would make me seriously feel bad if hanging out with me felt like a waste of time and gas.  I say it because I have felt it; I have thought about what else I could have been doing while I was out I have thought about how I would have been happier if I stayed in. Women invest even more time into it with the time they put into it to get ready.

I suppose one way to look at it would be the people who won't mind that are actually compatible with me while others just aren't as compatible and I would just end up going along with whatever.  What I like and what I do isn't bad.  Back when I had a chance to do what I like and what I found fun with my friend there weren't any objections or complaints about it being mundane...
I just realized what I called my social life has completely died and has inverted into an introvert death. Over the span of the last year I have been grabbing at anything of potential. When holding onto your own formula for a nice hang out fails many times over the formula has to be at fault but what else do I know?

The thing I guess I should take away from this whole thing is this seems like proof we need to be happy with ourselves before we can be happy with others.