Quote from unreal tournament when you lose the ball in a spot where everyone tumbles to death.
I know I have written about the death of a conversation before. When chatting with someone you must learn to recognize a conversation has died before you speak or type another word. If you don't then an even more awkward conversation will ensue.
How is it possible that there can be reasonable conversation chemistry and it just ends? There are many possible reasons on why I would let that happen, but the most common reasons are I don't care or you just annoy me. In many of those cases they initiate the conversation and after that happens they generally won't try to talk to me again. For a while at least. I suppose I manage to send a quiet but powerful message to just leave me alone.
I can't say I don't care at all. There is a lingering feeling of care and interest. If you wanted to be entirely cynical you could say I'm waiting for the next chapter of your story for me to hear. It is true that sometimes I just don't want to be involved with the journey there.
If a conversation is restarted there is one of two things that can happen. It could go back to the way things were before, we would chat and chances are I would get annoyed again. The second possibility is the conversation will be short and the scars from the fallout is obvious. We would discuss business and then that will be it, there would be courteous conversations but things will simply be superficial.
I don't want to hate anyone and I don't want anyone to hate me. There is more to life than that... But I don't want to feel used. No one wants that. At the same time I don't want to hear the same things over and over. If I did that, I would get an earful. I know I could do the same thing, send angry words to shut people up but by the time it gets to me my judgement of the person's character has changed for the worse.
Basically I just want to find out how some old friends are doing. I let the conversations die. I let the texts stop. I no longer initiate... I know I was dragged back into a world of drama the last time and that was rather stupid so I don't think I will.
If a conversation is restarted there is one of two things that can happen. It could go back to the way things were before, we would chat and chances are I would get annoyed again. The second possibility is the conversation will be short and the scars from the fallout is obvious. We would discuss business and then that will be it, there would be courteous conversations but things will simply be superficial.
I don't want to hate anyone and I don't want anyone to hate me. There is more to life than that... But I don't want to feel used. No one wants that. At the same time I don't want to hear the same things over and over. If I did that, I would get an earful. I know I could do the same thing, send angry words to shut people up but by the time it gets to me my judgement of the person's character has changed for the worse.
Basically I just want to find out how some old friends are doing. I let the conversations die. I let the texts stop. I no longer initiate... I know I was dragged back into a world of drama the last time and that was rather stupid so I don't think I will.
