The line "reflect on life choices" is a sarcastic statement where I want you to look at where you are and think about any regrets; obviously you aren't actually supposed to do that. Everything you have done and decided so far is already set and will continue to screw with you moving forward. Looking back and thinking about that would only make the situation worse don't you agree?
I suppose the new year is a time when people inevitably reflect on the past year. Perhaps with a glimmer of hope they can do better in the next one. Lately it feels like I am made very aware of the poor life choices I have made so far. Most of which fall in the category of sedentary choices rather than regrets for something I have done.
Most people are aware of the one thing I consistently say I want and that would be a girlfriend. Everyone has their own advice, more often than not it correlates with the advice of others. There are advice along the lines of go out, even if alone, move out, be more ambitious, go to gym and be more confident, and even aim for lower hanging fruit.
I usually don't think ahead and I occasionally think about the past. I tend to just think in the present like a goldfish. I don't know why that would be the case but I do lean towards the idea that there are too many variables to confidentially predict the future. It's like watching the weather forecast. They pull numbers out of their ass and my dad passionately responds to the forecast "what are we going to do it's going to be so hot next week!". As the week progresses the forecast is updated and we forget the shock the last set of predictions brought and look ahead with shock and awe at the forecasted highs or lows for the new week.
Logically if you have a goal there is a way to reach it. Realistically there is a theoretical path to anything. If you wanted to buy a house you might need to find a second job or a better job for the span of approximately 30 years so you can buy it. There are steps I don't know, struggles I can't predict and I guess I just don't really care. It's like the weather forecast if you wanted to do something on that hot day would you scrap your plans or go for it anyways? You obviously plan for the heat and if it rains simply follow the plan, wear very little, catch pneumonia, then die.
Logically if you have a goal there is a way to reach it. Realistically there is a theoretical path to anything. If you wanted to buy a house you might need to find a second job or a better job for the span of approximately 30 years so you can buy it. There are steps I don't know, struggles I can't predict and I guess I just don't really care. It's like the weather forecast if you wanted to do something on that hot day would you scrap your plans or go for it anyways? You obviously plan for the heat and if it rains simply follow the plan, wear very little, catch pneumonia, then die.
I know my mentality is fucked up somewhere in this post. I won't deny the probability that I had an absurd amount of expectations which weren't met in my mental image of life. I know I have only begun to take partial control of my life in the last few years. I know people have pushed me for the last 7 years and it took at least 5 years for anything to happen. There is a mental image and there is reality. I am 28 and have a small fraction of what I had hoped for in life at 28.
Goldfish. Count the days that pass and let the weeks go by as little victories. You survived a week let's just repeat it 50 more times to get to a new year.
